Learning to Trust...

We have been home almost two months, and things have gotten much better. Noah is finally learning to trust me. Since I last posted I returned to work, where thankfully, though hard at times, Noah and Madison are with me. Noah has done remarkable there, and really enjoys being with the other kids.

Almost a month ago he got his first fever,(He has another now and had one two weeks ago-poor guy) and things went from being OK to B.A.D. He would be ok during during the day, even with his fever, and Jamie kept him home (although it was a hard decision-I didn't want to be away from him that long) but at night he was inconsolable. He would cry and cry for "Omma" and "Ahpa" I definitely wasn't who he wanted. After he was fever free, he decided he didn't want to eat from me. At first I thought he was still not feeling well, but then at work my co-worker gave him a small bite of her lunch, and he ate it fine, it was just me. Well, mean mommy that I am (after crying in the car) I wouldn't let her feed him, and after about another day, he decided that I wasn't too bad, and he has done WONDERFUL since then. I believe he realized that I am not leaving him, and sad as it is, that his "Omma" isn't coming back. He really is starting to trust me, and although we still have a long way to go, I am seeing progress everyday. He is even starting to show more affection towards me, and will give me hugs and kisses occassionally! He has even started laying his head on my shoulder and "melting" into me!

It is funny that even as a child trust is something that takes time to learn, and develop.