Friday, February 29, 2008

BITTERSWEET

Well this weekend was not one I want to remember, my grandpa died unexpectedly on Friday February 22, 2008. My birthday was February 23. Not a very good one this year. =(

In light of all the sadness though we got word that we have moved up to number 4 on the waiting list!

Hopefully March will be the month for us to see our sweet baby's face! I know that my Grandpa will be watching over him for us until we get him!

I'll miss you PeePaw. I love you!

Jessica


"Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning." - Psalm 30:5

"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." –Psalm 34:18

Kisses In The Wind

February 10, 2007

Quick update: We have moved up a little on the waiting list. The last time I heard anything we were now 7! That was a few weeks ago. (All offices in Korea were closed most of last week due to the Lunar New Year! Welcome year of the RAT! Most likely our baby was born last year which was the year of the PIG!)

The WAIT is getting very hard and it has only been a month. I think part of what makes it hard is really any moment we could be getting a phone call letting us know that we have been matched, and everyday that goes by that we aren't makes me really SAD :( I KNOW our baby is over in KOREA right now, most likely about 4-5 months old and I wonder What is he like? What is he doing? Is he crying? Does he have enough to eat? Is he being LOVED?? My heart just aches everyday for HIM. I know that since this wait is SO hard already, I can't imagine the wait once we have a picture of him and have to wait 3-4 months to go get him. I know it is going to just kill me, but once I have him in my arms it will all be worth it.

Will continue to update.....


KISSES IN THE WIND

I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.
You are here each day with me, at least that's how it seems.
I know you wonder where we are... what's taking us so long
.But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.
Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...
Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.
May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, I'm doing all that I can do.
Very soon, you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.
But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.
May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.
And let the angels bring the kisses that I send to you each night.

--- Unknown

Adoption Update

January 13, 2008

Ok now that I have a few minutes I thought I would update a little more on the adoption. We finished our homestudy Friday December 14. Our SW came to our house and inspected it and spoke to Madison. WE PASSED!!!! She then had to write a report approving us for international adoption, and send it to our placing agency, US Department of Citizenship and Immigration Services-USCIS (Dept of Homeland Security), and to us! We are APPROVED for a healthy child or TWINS, of either gender from 0-18 months old from KOREA!!!!

Our placing agency received our homestudy and approved us for international adoption.

AS OF JANUARY 9, 2008 WE ARE OFFICIALLY IN THE WAITING POOL AND ARE NUMBER 8 ON THE LIST FOR A LITTLE BOY!!!! (NUMBER 30+ ON THE LIST FOR A GIRL-SO CHANCES ARE WE WILL GET A BOY, AND THATS FINE WITH US!!) The lady in charge of Korea said we now just sit back and wait- they will call us when we are matched probably in about 1 to 2 MONTHS!!!! (alot sooner then we thought-although it does have the potential to get longer)

When we are matched (get our referral) we will get a picture along with any background information that's available, and a medical report. The baby will be approximately 5-6 months old. We then review it and have a doctor review it and send in our acceptance letter. (The only way you can turn down a referral is for a medical problem that you aren't comfortable with.)

We then fill out more paperwork and wait for the travel call about 3 months later. The baby will be about 9 months old.

We are now waiting to get fingerprinted for Dept of Homeland Security so that they too can approve us, this process takes about 8 weeks from the time you are fingerprinted-we haven't yet.

ON THE LIST!!!

January 11, 2008

Well Just have time for a quick adoption update!!

WE ARE OFFICIALLY ON THE WAITING LIST!!! TECHNICALLY CALLED THE WAITING POOL!!! HAVE LOTS MORE INFO BUT I WILL POST IT LATER!!!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT IS REALLY GOING TO HAPPEN........YAY YAY YAY

Love Without Boundaries

December 17, 2007

I wanted to share this by Amy Eldridge from the "Love Without Boundaries" blog...

love without boundaries

This weekend I took my six year old daughter to see the Nutcracker for the very first time. It was in downtown Oklahoma City, and all the lights were twinkling around the square. Anna put on her red holiday dress and was beyond excited. As we walked into the music hall and we saw the 40 foot high tree, and all the beautiful decorations, I caught myself once again thinking about all the children who at that very moment were sleeping in barren cribs, with no heat. I do this to myself all the time, and I vowed that tonight I would NOT think about orphaned children, and I would just enjoy the evening. And so I looked around at all the happy families, and everyone had on holiday clothes, and the little girls were all dressed up for their night at the ballet. (I will not think of orphans.....I will not think of orphans........... ) and then a woman walked in with her daughter and I broke that vow for the millionth time. Her little girl was an absolute vision. She had on a floor length velvet gown, with an underskirt that caused her dress to swirl out around her. She had on a white fur coat, and her mom had curled her blonde hair into hundreds of ringlets. And on the top of her head she had a diamond tiara. I think it was the tiara that brought the tears. And not because it was expensive, but because this mom had obviously spent so much time lovingly getting her little girl ready for a very special night out. I could just envision her bringing out the princess crown and saying, "THIS is a magical night and you deserve to look like a queen." They were laughing and holding hands, and as they walked up the grand staircase it hit me once again full in my heart the disparity that exists in the world with children. Why are some children born to be treasured and others are born to know only pain? How many children in the world NEVER have a momma to do their hair and tell them, "today is a SPECIAL day." Sometimes I think I must be crazy.....and I will look around me to see if it looks like anyone else in the room is feeling like this. Is it normal to cry when your little boy steps up to homeplate, knowing that so many children around the world will never have that simple pleasure? Is it normal to go to the park and have to choke back tears watching children just enjoy the tiny thrill that comes from being able to play outside or zoom down a slide? Oh I hope so....because that is my normal now. I so want to give my own children a feeling of JOY this season. But I find my head has two thoughts running at the exact same time every moment of the day. Mom, can we bake cookies? *** 13 new babies are critical and we have nowhere to put them. Mrs. Eldridge, can you send treats for the holiday party? ***** She has severe heart disease and might have lung damage. Mom, can we go see Narnia? ***** Do you have the funds to help us? She is so sick and we feel she needs to be in the hospital. Mom, where are my band shoes? **** If we can build this school they have a chance to learn to read and rise above their poverty. Where shall we hang the ornaments? ***** I am sorry but he passed away......he was just too sick when we found him. Can you take us shopping for gifts? ***** She was left weighing just 2 kg, she needs to move immediately to the hospital, do we have the funds? The other night I turned off my computer and sat down to watch the ending of Lord of the Rings: Return of the King. I remember when I first saw it (pre-China), and I thought that they should have ended the movie when Aragon turns to Frodo with the glorious backdrop of the mountains and castle and says "you kneel to no man". After that the movie goes back to the Hobbit's shire and I remember not really liking the way it was wrapped up....I wanted the GRAND ending. :-) So this time I was watching it and I jokingly said to my husband, "maybe we should just stop it at the scene with Aragon and not watch the rest." But of course we kept going, and then Frodo said something that made me realize that it was indeed the perfect ending. He said, "How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on...when in your heart... you begin to understand... there is no going back? There are some things that time cannot mend. Some hurts that go too deep...that have taken hold of you forever." That summed up exactly what I have been feeling for so long after experiencing all that I have in China........there is no going back. You cannot see children in real need and then just "turn it off". Their faces will be with you forever. And you will see that same longing in every child around the world who needs someone to care for them....whether it is on a news program about children in the Sudan, or news pictures of children in Iraq, or in a new photo of a child needing surgery from an orphanage saying,"please, can you help?" You can't turn off that intense desire to want to help them....because in your heart you know that the kids can't turn off their sadness, or fear, or loneliness. But I have realized recently that it is okay to have two thoughts always going at once. Because when your daughter looks up at you as the Sugar Plum Fairy comes out on the stage to dance, and whispers "isn't she BEAUTIFUL, mommy?"......you can blink away the tears that come from knowing so many children will never have such amoment of pure wonder.....and remind yourself to CHERISH that very moment that God has put in your life. Every child on this earth is a blessing.....and we should never take for granted those little moments with our own children that remind us how very lucky we all are to have each other as family. THAT is what I am reflecting on this holiday season. How blessed we are to have the gift of children in this world......and how much they depend on adults to take care of them and make them feel safe. So I will treasure every hectic moment and smile as we hurtle towards Christmas day, while knowing that it is perfectly okay to also cry on the inside, for all of those kids who still wait.

Amy Eldridge

Dear Family and Friends

December 15, 2007

Dear Family and Friends,

As I sit here listening to Christmas music thinking of my "still to-do list" I take a step back and try to remind myself of the powerful truth that underlies this most sacred of holy seasons- "the virgin shall conceive and bear a Son, and shall call His name Immanuel." The TRUE meaning of Christmas. It is very easy to get caught up in all the commercialism of the holidays, but I hope that as you read this letter that you also will stop and think about the real reason for the season.

Looking back, 2007 was another year of God's grace. Our family continues to be covered with blessings. After "graduating" from preschool, and being voted "Class Bookworm" in the spring, Madison started Kindergarten. It was very emotional for me to let her go, but she is doing wonderfully. Jamie is still working at the hospital and in his spare time playing the guitar. He is playing with a local bluegrass band called "Special Edition". I still have a daycare.

We started attending a new church. Although we miss our church family dearly, we love that we can be more involved in a church close by. Madison is attending AWANA and loves it. She is doing a great job memorizing her Bible verses. I attended a woman's bible study in the summer, and Jamie and I are leading the Praise and Worship on Sunday nights.

Our biggest announcement is that we have decided to add another child to our family thru the miraculous blessing of adoption. For a little over a year, we have been talking and praying about another baby. We feel that the path that God has chosen for us to follow is thru international adoption. Specifically Korea, and we are very happy with our decision!
Our desire to have a child goes much deeper than our genes. There are so many children in the world who needs not only a mother, and a father (and a sister), but a loving extended family as well. We know that whether biological or not that this child will be as much our own child and as much a part of our family as Madison is.

This baby will be fully Korean, and we have no reservations about having a child of a different race and culture. As children we are taught "We are the World" and "Jesus Loves the Little Children". With that in mind we need to remind ourselves that we are all God's children, no matter where we are born or the color of our skin. God sees no color. A child is a child no matter where they are from whether it's the U.S., Korea, Africa, or Spain. They all need love and deserve a family.

We realize that this is not the easiest way to have a child. The process is very time consuming, stressful, and expensive. Although it may not be the road for everyone, we know it is the right road for us. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers. If you have any questions or concerns please do not hesitate to get in touch with us.

Finally dear friends, Christmas would not be complete without the smiles, hugs, and love that you bring to our lives. We are honored to call you all family. I pray that every good thing will come your way as you celebrate Jesus' birth. May the wonder, joy, peace, and hope of Christmas, fill your mind and heart this year. God bless you and Merry Christmas!

Jamie Jessica and Madison

NEW CHANGES UPDATE

December 5, 2007

Well, it has been a while since I have updated about our adoption. There have been a few changes......

First we had another interview today with our social worker, it went well. She is coming to our house for our home visit next Friday and then we are done with our homestudy!!

Over the past month Viet Nam has had some problems on the adoption front, which could possibly lead to US stopping adoptions from Viet Nam until they can work out the details. I pray that this will not be the case, but most likely will happen in the early spring. After praying about it and talking to each other along with our pastor and his wife, we have decided that instead of taking the chance that the program will close to instead adopt from KOREA!!

(The decision to switch was not an easy one to make. With adoption you love your child way before you have them, and for me to switch countries was almost like losing a baby. I have grieved and now am moving on.)
Korea has the longest running of international adoptions in the US. It is a very smooth running process. Also they don't have the political turmoil that alot of other countries do. Since we are drawn to Asian countries Korea seems to be a perfect fit. Jamie likes it because the travel time is relatively short, just 5-7 days and they have direct flights from Dulles to Seoul. The time frame is about the same, hopefully next summer a referral and travel 3-4 months later.

After telling people that we have decided to go with Korea, it has amazed me that a lot of people have said that's where they thought we should be anyway.

Will update more soon.

November is National Adoption Month

November 1, 2007

Today begins National Adoption Month!

Also we had our first Group study meeting tonight. It went well. There is another couple who is adopting from Viet Nam, and they also have biological children. Three actually, a 15 year old daughter, a 4 year old daughter and a 7 year old son. Madison is approaching 6, so we hope that we will be able to get together with them once we have our children home.

We have most of our paperwork in. We even had to have a 10 page typed autobiography. Boy those were tough. We are still waiting on our birth certificates and our marriage license, but they should be in the mail next week. Next is Dr's appointments and fingerprinting!! But they are time sensitive and must be done closer to the end.

We have 2 more group studies 3 1/2 hours each for 3 Thursdays in a row. Then once all of our paperwork is in, we will have another interview, and then our social worker will come do a home visit. Then we are done with our Home Study, and move on to phase II which is....you guessed it......MORE PAPERWORK!!!

We also got confirmation that our application to PLAN (our international agency) was received!!! We should have our contracts from them soon.

INFO

October 26, 2007

"For my extended family and friends: We need a slap on the back. Guess what, we're not crazy. And we're certainly not saints. This decision has not been made lightly so please don't assume we have not thought it through. We don't need your approval, but we would like to have it. We'd never tell you how many kids to have, or how you should choose to bring them into your family, so we hope you won't tell us. What we need from you is a big hug and a hearty "Congratulations!" You see, I'm emotionally pregnant right now. And expectant mothers need TLC."

Adoption Questions

October 14, 2007

Lots of people have been asking a lot of questions like "Why don't you have your own kid again?" Well, we feel that we don't have to biologically have children in order to love them, or to be our "OWN". Bio or adopted they will just be OUR kids, and why not open our hearts to adoption because I believe WE all have been adopted. God first adopted us, through Christ His son we are adopted and joint heirs in the kingdom of salvation.

"Having predestined us to adoption as sons by Jesus Christ Himself, according to the good pleasure of His will, to the praise and glory of His grace, by which He made us accepted in the Beloved." Ephesians 1:5-6 (NKJV)

"For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, they are the sons of God. For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but you have received the spirit of adoption, whereby we cry Abba, Father. The Spirit itself beareth witness to our spirit, that we are the children of God: And if children, then heirs; heirs of God, and joint-heirs with Christ; if so be that we suffer with Him, that we may also be glorified together." Romans 8:14-17 (NKJV)

"Pure and undefiled religion before our God and Father is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself unstained by the world." James 1:27 (NKJV)

Why we don't adopt from here (Here being the United States) because there are lots of children here? There are alot of children here, AND there are SO many more everywhere else. And since I don't look at all of us as separate to me there is NO difference between a child in Asia, Africa, the U.S. or Spain - a child is a child no matter where they are from and they all need love regardless! Besides that we feel that we are being led to ASIA. (See blog on adoption update.)

First Homestudy Interview

October 10, 2007

We had our first home study interview Tuesday, and after a VERY LONG WEEKEND and VERY LONG MONDAY NIGHT, it went VERY well. We met our social worker, Judy, and she will be the one working with us for the whole process. We were nervous but basically we just had to answer ALOT of questions, and also was able to get alot of our questions answered. We will have another interview with her, then she will come to our house. Also, we have to get our papers together that are required and have 10 hours of training on adoption, attachment, and becoming a trans racial family. Hopefully the Homestudy part of our process will be completed by December. =)

This is really happening

October 4, 2007

just received the call from Roanoke Catholic Charities!! They accepted our application, and am going to make an appointment for our first meeting early next week! So now we are on to step 2!
Keep us in your prayers!!

**UPDATE: Our first Homestudy interview is Tuesday October 9, 2007 at 9:30 am!!!

Adoption Update =)

September 30, 2007

Well, we are officially starting our adoption process. As many of you know last November we decided to adopt and have had to wait ever since because China's laws require that BOTH parents have to be 30 before the dossier can be logged in. The dossier is ALL the paperwork that has to be filled out and notorized from the US government. etc. etc. I felt certain that we would adopt from China, my heart has been there and maybe it still is (one day!)
HOWEVER.....God has other plans for us. I know that this is going to sound kind of bad but when I would look at the pictures of the children from those websites, I tend to overlook the boys. I don't do it intentionally I love ALL CHILDREN and am very close to a lot of the little boys that I watch. I just figured we would adopt a little girl and since I have a daughter already it just seems natural, and I always wanted girls. Well, I saw a little BOY (407-08) on a website called rainbowkids.com (it is an adoption website that has waiting children from ALL over the world. They are available for adoption, mostly because they are considered "special needs".
That being said the little boy was 22 months old and that was his special need...He was considered TOO OLD to be adopted. =( First his little face just melted my heart, and then I realized that his birthday was on the same day that I felt God planted in my heart to adopt, just a years difference he was born in 2005 and not 2006. Well I knew the chances of us being able to adopt him were SLIM. (AND WE'RE NOT ABLE TO. LUCKILY I THINK HE'S SINCE FOUND HIS FOREVER FAMILY-AS HE'S NO LONGER ON THE LIST!) In order to request a child off of the waiting list you have to have your HOMESTUDY completed, and we DON'T because we've been WAITING, because they are only good for a year. Of course I prayed about it anyway and called the adoption agency right away, and found out he is from VIETNAM.
Before I knew that he wasn't available anymore I found a local agency and they were having an orientation meeting the very next night. So I attended, Jamie was on call and couldn't change his schedule on such short notice. I brought an application home and Jamie and I decided to fill it out and start the process for adoption from VIETNAM.
I think God showed us that little boy for one of two reasons. I think it was to give us a nudge to go on and start the process in Vietnam (or Korea-that is our second option) instead of waiting for China, OR to open up our hearts to a little boy OR both!
The application is filled out and will be in the mail tomorrow October 1, 2007. Then I will officially be PAPER PREGNANT!! We are EXCITED, but are very SCARED and NERVOUS! The adoption process is VERY long, VERY emotional,and VERY expensive! We are exhausting ALL areas that we can to come up with the MONEY, luckily it is paid for over the whole adoption process and not in one lump sum. We will be having some fundraisers, along with some odd and end jobs to help us along the way.
PLEASE KEEP US IN YOUR PRAYERS!

Psalm 32:3, "I will instruct you and teach you the way you should go; I will consel you and watch over you."
Jer 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

SHOW HOPE

April 28, 2007

Found this on a blog about adoption and thought I would share. I hope that each of us take a few minutes to pray for these orphans all over the world.

Make a difference Join the Movement

The story: At the age of 11, Emily Chapman came back from a trip to Haiti, and her heart was on fire to help the orphans and waiting children around the world. Emily already knew that God wanted her family to adopt, but her parents resisted. So she started praying. We believe miracles happen when you pray.
Now, years later, the Chapmans have adopted not 1 but 3 girls, and they have started an organization called Shaohannah's Hope (named after their first adopted daughter, Shaohannah Hope Chapman) that mobilizes individuals and communities to care for orphans. Shaohannah's Hope has helped over 1,000 orphans find a family, and many others have been impacted by their work. Miracles happen when you pray.
The movement: This movement began long before Shaohannah's Hope. It began long before any of us were born. This movement is rooted in the heart of God (Ps 10:14) and began with God's infinite love for orphans. This movement will continue long after we are gone, because God loves orphans. This movement consists of broken hearts longing to experience the redemption that is found when we turn our attention off ourselves and love these waiting children.
The forgotten children of the world are some of the most valuable hidden treasures that exist. We seek to serve these orphaned, foster, and waiting children in the name of Christ, regardless of their gender, religion, race, or ethnicity, and we will begin on our knees. Will you join us?

Why Pray?
They went to a place called Gethsemane, and Jesus said to his disciples, "Sit here while I pray." -Mark 14:32
143 million orphans and waiting children. Millions of children longing for the love of a family, for a place to belong, for somewhere to call home. There is so much to do, and yet we are calling people to start with prayer? Don't just do something, sit there!Why pray? I guess it's comes down to the classic answers: "Because the Bible tells us to", "What would Jesus do?" and "Why not?" When we've got a direct line to the omnipotent God of the universe, a God who promises to care and bend His ear to our plea, why wouldn't we start there? When Jesus establishes the primacy of prayer by rising early to pray before starting his ministry, or before going on to accomplish His work on the cross first taking the time to battle it out in prayer in the garden, why wouldn't we mimic his example? And when our gracious God expresses over and over in His Word, His guidebook, His love letter, that He longs for us to come before Him in prayer in all things and on all occasions, why wouldn't we oblige Him? As weak, fallible, and needy beings, we humbly take our proper position before our God. And as we kneel before Him, aware of the injustice around us, responding to the One who loved us first, we pray, "Our Father, who art in Heaven, hallowed be Your name. May Your Kingdom come, and Your will be done, on earth, in the lives of these orphans, in your church, and in my life, as it is in Heaven."I believe it will not be until the end of this world that we will finally get to see the full extent of the power and transformation that is unleashed by that simple prayer.

What Now?
Pray.Spread the word.
"Prayer does not equip us for greater works— prayer is the greater work."- Oswald Chambers
The Facts:
What is the need?
Over 143 million children have lost one or both parents. 1
At least 16.2 million children worldwide have lost both parents. 2
Every 14 seconds a child loses a parent due to AIDS. 3
Conflict has orphaned or separated 1 million children from their families in the 1990s. 4
Where are they?
43.4 million orphans live in sub-Saharan Africa, 87.6 million orphans live in Asia, and 12.4 million orphans live in Latin America and the Caribbean. 5
1.5 million children live in public care in Central and Eastern Europe alone. 6
At any given point there are over 500,000 children in the U.S. Foster Care system. 7
In some countries, children are abandoned at alarming rates, due to poverty, restrictive population control policies, disabilities or perceived disabilities, and cultural traditions that value boys more than girls. 8
What about AIDS?
More than 14 million children under the age of 15 have lost one or both parents to AIDS, the vast majority of them in sub-Saharan Africa. 9
By 2010, the number of children orphaned by AIDS globally is expected to exceed 25 million. 10
AIDS is more likely than other cause of death to result in children losing both parents. 11
As the infection spreads, the number of children who have lost parents to AIDS is beginning to grow in other regions as well, including Asia, Latin America and the Caribbean and Eastern Europe. 12
What happens to the children?
Children are profoundly affected as their parents fall sick and die, setting them on a long trail of painful experiences often characterized by: economic hardship, lack of love, attention and affection, withdrawal from school, psychological distress, loss of inheritance, increased physical and sexual abuse and risk of HIV infection, malnutrition and illness, stigma, discrimination, exploitation, trafficking, and isolation. 13
Orphaned children are much more likely than non-orphans to be working in commercial agriculture, as street vendors, in domestic service and in the sex trade. 14
Unaccompanied boys are at high risk of forced or 'voluntary' participation in violence and armed conflict. 15
Orphanages, children's villages, or other group residential facilities generally fail to meet young people's emotional and psychological needs. 16
What about foster care?
On average, children stay in foster care for 30 months, or 2.5 years. 17
118,000 children were waiting to be adopted on September 30, 2004. 18
On average, those children waiting for adoption have been in foster care for 43.8 months, almost 4 years. 19
Each year, an estimated 20,000 young people "age out" of the U.S. foster care system. Many are only 18 years old and still need support and services. Of those who aged out of foster care: 20 Outcome 21 Earned a high school diploma: 54% Obtained a Bachelor's degree or higher: 2% Were unemployed: 51% Had no health insurance: 30% Had been homeless: 25% 22 Were receiving public assistance: 30%
Is there any hope?
Yes. There is One who infinitely loves each orphan and calls His people to join Him in caring for the fatherless. Each one of us can Show Hope to an orphan.
If only 7% of the 2 billion Christians in the world would show hope to a single orphan, looking after the child in their distress, there would effectively be no more orphans. We can each do something.

Adoption Update

February 5, 2007

Well, it has been a while since I mentioned anything about adoption. Jamie and I went to an information meeting in Charlotesville a few weeks ago. It was a very informative.

We definitely want to adopt, and we definitely want to adopt from China. Although there will be numerous changes that will take effect this May, we still qualify even though the CCAA (China Center of Adoption Affairs) have made it harder to adopt internationally. The only thing stopping us from pursuing this RIGHT now is my age. You have to be 30 to adopt from China. Initially I knew it took about 24 months so I thought we could start the process and I would be 30 when we went to China, unfortunately I was wrong. Most of the paperwork expires after 15 months. The adoption agency recommended waiting until this time next year to begin the process. :(

At first I was really upset, but I know there are some things we need to do before we add another child to our family. We need to prepare emotionally and financially. We need to sell our house, and buy another (larger) one. Madison will be starting Kindergarten and I need to focus on her. She is getting so big. We did make the mistake and tell her about it before we realized that we will have to wait. She is so excited about getting her mei mei (little sister), and now I tell her it will be a long time, but the thought of it being years is lost on her. She doesn't understand the concept of time. She will be a great big sister or jie jie as the say in Mandarin :)

I know that if this is what God has in store for us then it will work out in His time. Patience is a gift that He blessed me with, I just hope I have the strength to endure the wait once we actually start the process. Jamie on the other hand gets more upset that it can't take place now. He fills like there isn't a light at the end of the tunnel. He is keeping himself busy with what needs to be done to prepare. Hopefully that will help at least for a while. I am keeping myself busy with research. But I know I will have plenty of time for more of that as the time draws closer....

Keep us in your thoughts and prayers....

Adoption?!?!

November 14, 2006

"Do not be afraid for I am with you, I bring your children from the East and gather you from the West." -Isaiah 43:5

Lately I have been thinking ALOT about adoption. Besides the fact that November is National Adoption Awareness Month, I am not sure why especially since I can have children (obviously). However I feel that God has placed in on my heart that maybe there is (or will be) a child waiting on us to love her, and give her a better life. I say "her" because I know she will be from China.
-There are about 1 MILLION infant girls abandoned in China each year.
-There are more than 15 MILLION in orphanages.
I have always felt drawn to Asia and have always had a special bond with Asian children. I've said that if I COULDN'T have kids then I would adopt one from China. After I had Madison I didn't think about it anymore until recently. Now I realize that it doesn't matter if I have a child biologically or not that I could love another just the same.

"Adoption is when a child grew in her mothers heart instead of her tummy". -Unknown

Jamie at first thought I was crazy, but now I think it is something that he actually wants to do, or at least consider it. There is a lot involved (not to mention the cost.) We haven't made a final decision yet, but we are going to an International Adoption Information meeting on January 9, in Charlottesville. And now I am just doing a ton of research. Although I feel in my heart that this is something that we will do...if not now at some point. I will update more soon!

"When a child is born invisible red threads extend from the child's spirit and connects all the significant people who will be a part of that child's life. As the child grows, the threads shorten, growing closer those people who are destined to be together." - An ancient Chinese belief.